Probably one of my favorite sayings as of late is, "different strokes for different folks". Truly, how great is that? A little perverted if you're in the mood yet completely true.
Learning not to judge others' decisions and choices is something I have been taking into serious consideration over the last year. Primarily I have my lifestyle (and M) to thank for this because my life has been so chaotic and different from the "norm" over the last year. Recently, I've been making choices that aren't necessarily the most responsible but that are important for me to be happy. Christine says it best in one of her blog posts, "No one is going to give you a gold star for playing it safe", so why bother? I've decided to start doing things that make me happy, right now. There, I'm living in the moment.
Upon these discoveries of accepting people and their decisions regardless if I think it is right or wrong has led me disliking when others judge me for my unique circumstances, decisions, and choices.
For example, Michael and I have and will again live together before we are married. By the standards in 2012, this is not shocking or abnormal, but some choose to make me feel embarrassed and even shameful for making this decision. It's a decision we made based on our lifestyle (neither of us prefer to live apart while hockey consumes our lives yet aren't ready to walk down the aisle either). Just because you don't agree with my decision, doesn't mean you need to put me down for my own personal choices.
So, please leave me be, and let bygones be bygones. Take care of your own life and try making yourself happy before you criticize me and my life.
Just some food for thought :)
On that note, I quit my terrible job selling copiers today. It feels a little crazy but mostly great! How liberating to not waste one more breath or ounce of energy on something that was making me so miserable.
What now you ask? Who knows. I'm working on it. I'm thinking something temporary that way I won't feel obligated to make a commitment that I won't be able to keep when I leave with M in the fall for the next hockey season. If you have any suggestions I'd be happy to hear them.
Happy Monday readers, have a great week!
Love&Luck
Showing posts with label Resolutions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Resolutions. Show all posts
Monday, January 9, 2012
Sunday, January 8, 2012
I'm Jumping...Head First
Tomorrow I will be making a very important that will change the course of the next few months to a few years. I am excited about this but also a little anxious. Please wish me luck, I will be able to elaborate more in a few days. I hope you all have a great start to your week. I'm getting very excited for all the adventures and surprises 2012 will bring. Cheers!
Love&Luck
Love&Luck
Friday, January 6, 2012
Procrastination
Well, I have been dreading writing this week. I am officially back in the states, and unlike previous hopes, wishes, and dreams, M and I decided staying until the season ended in France was not the best choice right now. I will admit, it was more of his responsibility and maturity that got me on that plane but the worst part of not staying was that I knew he was right. This year's plan was for both of us to maximize our savings (which is hard to do when we're together since we like to travel and spoil each other) and staying in France without a guarantee of a job was not a smart decision.
So here I am, back in Minnesota, reluctantly. Ever since being back I feel even more at a loss for direction in my life. I strongly feel that I cannot go back to my old job and perform one more meaningless day of selling copiers. I have been interviewing with a new company since before I left for France but haven't made a commitment yet; I am really struggling because I know I would flourish and thrive with this company and I would enjoy the opportunity they have to offer but it really wouldn't be fair when M and I have already decided that I would without a doubt be going with him next season, wherever that may be. So it wouldn't be fair to the company or myself to invest that time when I know beforehand that it would be a short-lived career. Then again, I have to do what I have to do, right? I've been struggling with whether to take the offer (if provided it) with this new company or do I do something like bar tend and serve until the next season? Gah, I am at such a tug of war with myself over what to do next. I feel like I need a life coach.
With that being said, I am still making every effort to live in the moment which means I'm trying to not think so much about our plans for the next season but to do what I need to do for myself...RIGHT NOW. I'm still trying to decipher what I need to do in my life right now so stay tuned as I try to figure out the next steps that will satisfy my needs as of current.
So here I am, back in Minnesota, reluctantly. Ever since being back I feel even more at a loss for direction in my life. I strongly feel that I cannot go back to my old job and perform one more meaningless day of selling copiers. I have been interviewing with a new company since before I left for France but haven't made a commitment yet; I am really struggling because I know I would flourish and thrive with this company and I would enjoy the opportunity they have to offer but it really wouldn't be fair when M and I have already decided that I would without a doubt be going with him next season, wherever that may be. So it wouldn't be fair to the company or myself to invest that time when I know beforehand that it would be a short-lived career. Then again, I have to do what I have to do, right? I've been struggling with whether to take the offer (if provided it) with this new company or do I do something like bar tend and serve until the next season? Gah, I am at such a tug of war with myself over what to do next. I feel like I need a life coach.
With that being said, I am still making every effort to live in the moment which means I'm trying to not think so much about our plans for the next season but to do what I need to do for myself...RIGHT NOW. I'm still trying to decipher what I need to do in my life right now so stay tuned as I try to figure out the next steps that will satisfy my needs as of current.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
My New Years Resolution
O.K., you've possibly been reading my blog for 1 week, 1 month or close to 1 year (it is Prone's birthday in February) so you've probably been able to tell I have a slight anxiety issue. No worries, it is under close observation and I am very satisfied with the prescription my doctor has given me to subdue my anxiety (T.M.I?? Too bad, so sad).
You may have also found out that my personality is what you call Type A. I love lists, enjoy cleaning, and actually like to organize and color coordinate my closet. Pathetic? I like to call it stability. So it is no wonder that I am always planning ahead or "planning to plan" as I like to refer to it. Although this tactic is great for some and means that I am always on my game, ready for anything, and ridiculously organized, it also means that I spend more time thinking about the future and future events than I do enjoying them and living in the present which leads me to 2012's resolution....
Live in the moment. Live for the now. Enjoy the present.
I need to stop thinking ahead so much and relish in the time I have now. I may not even get to the things I plan so why spent so much time worrying about them when I can't control them?
Seems like a waste of energy when I admit the time I spend consumed in fretting about the future or what is to come. You're not supposed to know every detail of the map laid out for you.
I feel as if I'm sounding wise and inspirational? Is it working? It could just be the fabulous vino I'm inducing in France (M just called me a lush when I asked for a refill of my wine glass...I just shrugged and continued writing).
Okay, vino is kicking in, M is getting ready for bed and encouraging me to do the same.
Love&Luck from France
You may have also found out that my personality is what you call Type A. I love lists, enjoy cleaning, and actually like to organize and color coordinate my closet. Pathetic? I like to call it stability. So it is no wonder that I am always planning ahead or "planning to plan" as I like to refer to it. Although this tactic is great for some and means that I am always on my game, ready for anything, and ridiculously organized, it also means that I spend more time thinking about the future and future events than I do enjoying them and living in the present which leads me to 2012's resolution....
Live in the moment. Live for the now. Enjoy the present.
I need to stop thinking ahead so much and relish in the time I have now. I may not even get to the things I plan so why spent so much time worrying about them when I can't control them?
Seems like a waste of energy when I admit the time I spend consumed in fretting about the future or what is to come. You're not supposed to know every detail of the map laid out for you.
I feel as if I'm sounding wise and inspirational? Is it working? It could just be the fabulous vino I'm inducing in France (M just called me a lush when I asked for a refill of my wine glass...I just shrugged and continued writing).
Okay, vino is kicking in, M is getting ready for bed and encouraging me to do the same.
Love&Luck from France
Where to Start
I have so many things to write and tell you about and it feels like so little time!
I think I'll go in reverse order since New Years is only a few days away and it's been on my mind lately. Do you make resolutions for yourself every year? I usually don't because after the first two or three months I usually put them in the back of my brain and forget about them completely and then I only feel like I let myself down by not following through. This year however, I feel like drafting probably only one resolution (to be revealed later) because I feel it is very important for me in so many ways (again, I will discuss in detail later).
If you make your own resolutions do you usually follow through? Or do they end up as a useless thought you planted yourself in the middle of winter?
Emily has made some goodies here if you want to see what she has in mind for 2012.
The last few days we've spent a lot of time walking around Gap and just relaxing and it has been amazing. Just out in the fresh air taking in the snow-capped mountains has been working wonders on my spirit. Tuesday morning we enjoying chocolat chaud (hot chocolate) at a cafe before lunch and then strolled around the centre before grabbing a hearty lunch of pasta at a local eatery. I really feel like I'm living in a dream. I love just being able to enjoy my surroundings and take in everything from the smell of fresh bread from the boulangerie's to that specific "smell" of cold when the air is crisp before the sun hits noon.
Michael and I have also began reading The Hunger Game series which is absolutely amazing. I've heard about the series previously and it's getting lots of hype since Hollywood is creating it on film so we figured what better time to read it than now before it comes out in theaters? I will definitely be writing some reviews on them (series of 3) since we've enjoyed them so much we've actually read 2 of them in 5 days which is saying a lot for a guy who doesn't like to read much.
I think part of the reason why he is enjoying them (besides that they're great, and by the way definitely not a children's series which it is categorized) is because we are reading them on his new Kindle Fire which he got for Christmas. Let me tell you, that thing is slick. I have the jacked up Kindle with the wi-fi and 3G capabilities but this thing is on a whole other level; just for reading? My behind. You can surf the internet, download movies, tv shows, magazines, books, etc. And the fun doesn't end there, you can also download any apps that you have on your Droid or IPhone like Angry Birds.
I think I'll make a video of it to post on here to post so you can see just how cool it is, it would make a great gift for a guy who has the inclination to read but a passion for technology and accessibility.
Otherwise? I still have lots of photos to upload and lots of writing to do to tell you about my fabulous trip to France. There are also a lot of exciting things that will be happening in my future that I can't discuss quite yet so I'm actually looking forward to getting back to Minnesota late next week to try and put back the pieces of my life.
Have a great Thursday! xO
I think I'll go in reverse order since New Years is only a few days away and it's been on my mind lately. Do you make resolutions for yourself every year? I usually don't because after the first two or three months I usually put them in the back of my brain and forget about them completely and then I only feel like I let myself down by not following through. This year however, I feel like drafting probably only one resolution (to be revealed later) because I feel it is very important for me in so many ways (again, I will discuss in detail later).
If you make your own resolutions do you usually follow through? Or do they end up as a useless thought you planted yourself in the middle of winter?
Emily has made some goodies here if you want to see what she has in mind for 2012.
The last few days we've spent a lot of time walking around Gap and just relaxing and it has been amazing. Just out in the fresh air taking in the snow-capped mountains has been working wonders on my spirit. Tuesday morning we enjoying chocolat chaud (hot chocolate) at a cafe before lunch and then strolled around the centre before grabbing a hearty lunch of pasta at a local eatery. I really feel like I'm living in a dream. I love just being able to enjoy my surroundings and take in everything from the smell of fresh bread from the boulangerie's to that specific "smell" of cold when the air is crisp before the sun hits noon.
Michael and I have also began reading The Hunger Game series which is absolutely amazing. I've heard about the series previously and it's getting lots of hype since Hollywood is creating it on film so we figured what better time to read it than now before it comes out in theaters? I will definitely be writing some reviews on them (series of 3) since we've enjoyed them so much we've actually read 2 of them in 5 days which is saying a lot for a guy who doesn't like to read much.
I think part of the reason why he is enjoying them (besides that they're great, and by the way definitely not a children's series which it is categorized) is because we are reading them on his new Kindle Fire which he got for Christmas. Let me tell you, that thing is slick. I have the jacked up Kindle with the wi-fi and 3G capabilities but this thing is on a whole other level; just for reading? My behind. You can surf the internet, download movies, tv shows, magazines, books, etc. And the fun doesn't end there, you can also download any apps that you have on your Droid or IPhone like Angry Birds.
I think I'll make a video of it to post on here to post so you can see just how cool it is, it would make a great gift for a guy who has the inclination to read but a passion for technology and accessibility.
Otherwise? I still have lots of photos to upload and lots of writing to do to tell you about my fabulous trip to France. There are also a lot of exciting things that will be happening in my future that I can't discuss quite yet so I'm actually looking forward to getting back to Minnesota late next week to try and put back the pieces of my life.
Have a great Thursday! xO
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