Heavy Heart

Things are going to get a little heavy and a little personal for a little bit.

Many of you know that although I do have my own life, priorities, and goals for myself, much of my existence revolves around Michael and his life, career, etc. Whether this is your situation or not, please don't judge me or my decisions. To me, most of my life and decisions are pretty easy, stay or go, do or do not; so when it comes to putting my aspirations on hold for a few years while he carries out his dream of making a career out of hockey, it is an easy decision.
I already have my degree, and it's not going anywhere. His body, abilities and skills, will someday be gone or not nearly as strong as they are now. As sad as it is to say, his hockey career will come to an end at some point. When simply stated like that, it's a rather easy decision. I will be able to do the exact same job now, as I will in the future. Now don't get me wrong, it definitely won't be as easy considering I will have missed this time to build experience, but being with Michael wherever he may be is what makes me happy. So I go where his career goes.
Yes, there are definitely times of weakness when I feel as though my life has less value because he/me/we are focusing on him so much at this time. Which leads me to my somewhat in depth question, does this make me 1/2 of a partnership, instead of 1 whole? Do you know what I'm saying by that? When it comes to relationships, is it fair to put your own dreams on the back burner to simmer while your counterpart is front and center set to boil?
Just something to think about. Something I have been tossing around more frequently as of recent but has always been something Michael and I have discussed.

On a lighter note, I leave for France in 9 days! I can't believe it's almost here. Although I am beyond excited I'm a pretty anxious person so there is a lot running through my head like what to pack, how much, yada yada. Thankfully, yoga has been helping keep my anxiety in check; I've noticed that if I don't go to yoga after work, I lay in bed at night thinking of all these unnecessary aspects of my trip to come.

I've also got a few more posts in the making including the book review I mentioned earlier. Get ready for a light-hearted, hilarious read that will have you giggling out loud.